What Color Are The Tears In The Fountain Of The Heart

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Top 5 for the week:
1. Resonance – by T.M.Revolution
2. Candy Holic – by An Cafe
3. Kona Yuki – by Asian Kung-Fu Generation
4. Kirei na Kanjou – by Akino Arai
5. Balisong – by Rivermaya


I never knew a MiniStop could be such a “holy” place.

I mean, they keep playing these holy inspirational songs around the afternoon while I’m there sipping some cafe latte. I constantly feel like I’m back at my teenager days again as an altar boy and I’m drinking leftover mass wines and eating the leftover shove-in-your-hands-or-mouth chips.

Come to think of it, coffee without cream looks a lot like hot mass wine.

I can’t stay for more than 15 minutes inside MiniStop (the one near the PLDT-RCB building) at the afternoons, because I don’t like feeling a lot nostalgic and such while having my cup of coffee.

I kind of regretted back then going to college back in 2004, because then I have to abruptly leave my church servitude, due to me being of breaching the age limit of 16. And as my previous elders have done, and I know fully why, I never had a formal leave. I never told anybody, I never told the altar boys handler, I just left my “sutana” hung nice and clean on the sacristy room, and left without a word.

I did not have the propensity to say “goodbye” to any of them, and the only way I can say I’m done with the service is to leave my suit for somebody else to wear. But then I highly doubted anybody would wear mine, because I was the tallest altar boy back then. And I stopped going to my local church for a year or so, because everytime I go I feel like wearing that white cape again, which is not anymore the case, and it’s kind of like a self-imposed rehab for me. Two years later I had the strength to go back to my local church and attend a full hour of mass without having that pang of pain.

Many things changed, which was good. The altar boys now wear the “San Lorenzo Ruiz” attire, the priests keep changing skin colors and nationality, and the atmosphere in the church is way more disciplined than before. I think the altar boys handler also have limited further the age limit from 16 to about 14. But I couldn’t help back then to be reminded of the old days and those Christmas overnights.

Nah. I’ll manage. Nostalgic feelings always keep coming back, but it’s like a gentle wave on a beach, it will recede.


Andrew [REDACTED] is now back. Officially a royal pain in the you-know-where again 😀

*sound of a trumpet*
Behold, he hath summoned this humblest, lowliest of peasants, is given the honor to seek and be returneth the Lord’s ye olde Calculus bibliotheque and doth be delivereth to his most glorious Kingdom, and be the King hast rejoiceth over his treasure, basking him in glory. He shall use His powers he summoneth from the bibliotheque to cast demons out of ye town hamsters, make apple wine out of spent banana peels, revive ye most flaccid of Numerical Methods, and be able to riseth the most downfallen of grades and returneth it to a most knightly status worthy of a saint.

And enough of this ye Old England haggis. 😀

By the way, that book I borrowed two years ago has never changed in shape, in content and in the number of pages. Still as dilapidated as ever, but at least it’s clean because I kept it where molds never dare to traverse, my anime CD collection cabinet. I have to be grateful to that book; it served as my handy spare cabinet key hideaway, it functioned as a very good deterrent from my parents to disturb me needlessly, and helped me with a couple of algorithms for my thesis. Truly a trash made of gold, or vice versa.

I went back to my alma mater this last July 19 to hunt that man down. Met some old friends, including some people who I felt should’ve had the privilege to graduate on time but a sinking-ship badass hauled them down to his shitty grave. I can’t blame both parties; one side had very congenial personalities but didn’t do any diddy shit on the thesis, one side did almost everything in programming-wise contributions but had a personality of a 1940s Japanese kamikaze pilot. Bound for disaster.

And I gave that God-forsaken book back to it’s owner. 😀 Hope he didn’t mind my little friendly pokes, hehe.

1CSB are always friends, excluding that guy with a “personality of a 1940s Japanese kamikaze pilot”.


I’ll probably pursue a permanent career after this. I’m just a guy with a plan. I’m not that materialistic to begin with.

Accenture keeps calling me at work, but as a work ethic follower, I always keep it in silent mode. The only problem I had with Accenture is that they never called again after that initial April interview. That sucked big time for me, since it hit home hard that work never comes on a silver platter, unlike some of my illustrious, medal-laden, honor-bound classmates who got companies clamoring for their services. So I decided that the first contract signing that comes my way will be my first career path.

I believe that opportunity only knocks, only you choose when to open the door. Accenture only went to my doorstep and walked away.

So now that I already signed 5 pages of a contract (and now quite OK), and now working my best at a telecom company I was contracted to, why would I answer the phone anymore? Besides, I get to work with some of the best companies in this country, and apply for better things after spicing up my resume. I’m exposed to different company procedures, multiple vouches, and good reputation, why not?

I take less for now and will get more in return. The next problem for me is the prospect of being away from my family someday, has its ups and downs, but that’s a problem for another year.


Truth be told, I love weird snacks.

I eat that food that Americans find the most disgusting in Asia, “balut”, but I only eat the yellow part and give the chick to my dog.

I really love to eat that Oishi ridges snack, wasabi flavor. Imagine that.

At home, I mix apples, bananas, and ube ice cream for dessert.

I somewhat like the aftertaste of Lucky Me’s “Tom Yum” hot noodle. Somewhat tangy.

Once, I bought freshly sliced and prepared sashimi from a metro sushi bar and took them home, I told them it was raw tuna meat and the ones raw beside it was scallops sushi and some ootoro. No one would dare eat it beside me, they don’t like it raw. If I left it, my father would have probably fried the sashimi slices. I downed 10 slices.

I love milk tea. Without sugar.

I once recycled the hotdogs on the ref and made myself hotdog curry.

Once as a dare I ate a slice of ripe mango with a spoonful of ketchup. Yum.

I did a version of that “Cement Mixer” cocktail, but using softdrinks. I mixed 2 glasses of lemon soda with 1/2 can of condensed milk, and it was like clogging down my throat with every gulp.

I usually eat street food if I see it to my liking. But as a principle I don’t eat one-day-old chicks and chicken feet. They’re street food, but these two food types I mentioned earlier are just a waste of money to eat.

My favorite food is “pinapaitan“, literally “bittered”, which is a stew made of goat innards, goat meat, goat skin, goat fat, maybe some beef meat here and there, and the soup’s bitterness comes from a green substance extracted from the goat’s bile and/or pancreas. Nice.

My favorite iced tea flavor is One Tea’s “Four Seasons”. I sometimes make it “Six”, adding other tea flavors.

I like my noodles COLD. Like I cook some cup noodles, I prefer that it cooks for the recommended 3 minutes with hot water, then I place it in the ref for 2 hours.

I once did that “Pulp Fiction” thing, eating french fries with mayonnaise instead of ketchup.

John Travolta: “I’ve seen them do it, man, they fuckin’ drown them in that shit.”
Samuel L. Jackson: “Yuck”


The anime “Mnemosyne” is now over, officially.

It was great, more like an “acquired tastes” type of anime. For mature audiences only.

The ending was quite like a downer for me, actually. The anime series makes most audiences wanting for more of the “aftermath”, but ending it with a babyshot is just a bit of a lowdown.

Also, Junjou Romantica is also done for now, with 12 episodes plus a DVD-only seiyuu dubs. If I have to say, of all the yaoi anime I watched, this one hits the spot. Where else can you get 3 yaoi pairings in just 12 episodes? Just great. Guaranteed I’ll buy the DVD releases (secretly).

Now I have to just sit tight and wait for the release of the anime version of Kurogane Kenn’s “Shoujo Sect”, which is pure unadulterated yuri. It’s like the reverse of “Junjou Romantica”, lots of pairings, lots of action and lots of drama. Good stuff coming and I’m itching to watch.

Currently there’s “Zero no Tsukaima 3”, “Special A”, “Kanokon”, and lots more of the good stuff, so I’m full on the anime fodder.

I’m also interested in acquiring some shows that can surely generate a big laugh. I currently have these on my PC just to amuse myself on downer days:

Clerks
Clerks II
Monty Python and the Holy Grail
The “Scary Movie” series
Epic Movie
Borat
Mrs. Doubtfire
Good Morning Vietnam
Big Show vs Floyd Mayweather (Wrestlemania 24)
Kung Fu Panda
Shaolin Soccer
a few Eminem music videos
also a few Al Yankovic parodies

My PSP currently has a few animes in it, considering I got bored of playing Silent Hill Zero.


I’m also kinda out of the loop with regards to some music releases. I mean, work takes a f**king lot of me. The only way I get the latest music is by Aznmedia and nihonGaku torrents, I download them by weeknights and listen to them in between bus trips to and from work.

Mostly these two music release groups release mainstream mp3s. Like Nightmare, Ayabie, the GazettE, Hyde, Vamps, etc. The only thing I miss is the indies, like exist+trace, Fatima, uchuu pops sentai noiz, and the like.

Probably by Saturday I’ll try to catch up.

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